"Substance of Freedom"
liberating mind
Man Freedom.
Is of great importance, but mostly in strictly
structured society,
when everybody senses the load of the
regulations and the conventionalities.
This had brought me to this subject..
Replies
sent by e-mails:
"Every time I was reading your story I had the same recurring feeling that you were no longer human. That you were more like a bird with large wings who has the power and wisdom to lift off the routine of life and raise above this."
" I have read your creation for quite a few times. It is definitely a non-conventional story. It must have been quite an experience you had in Rome. It is as if you managed to break through the life and time flow and view this flow from above."
".. the text is so powerful. It took
me away for a while from all my problems and made me realize their inferiority...."
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Substance
of Freedom
notes
of wanderer
written by Gera
"Times
flow through death and stops in life. In this point
where eternity and time meets on the cross-piece of
Soul window-sash..."
Milards Pavich "Inside the wind."
Man crashes
into God's world, liberating himself from the incarceration of the womb. The
first act of liberation is the severing of the umbilical cord. Freedom? No. He
falls into tangled web of dependence and is seized by an unquenchable thirst for
freedom. Ask anyone what is freedom and any answer will be a vague reflection of
the undesirability of the burden of dependences. What is the freedom for you?
Last
conversation in the Eternal City:
- My heart, today I am leaving you.
- Are you going away?
- Tomorrow. But this wonderful evening I will cease to exist in your
reality.
- But you will be with me in my dreams, in my thoughts...
- Liberate me from the imprisonment within your memory. I love you and wish you
the best. Leave me in peace. Farewell, my soul
- Amore mio, stasera ti lasciro.
- Devi
partire?
- Domani.
Ma I questa serena sera io moriro per te.
-
Sarai sempre con me nei miei sogni, nei miei pensieri. Liberarmi dal tempio della tua
memoria. Dobbiamo liberarsi. Ti voglio tanto bene, anima mia.
Someone
runs by, passes by, and lives. Evening, day or night. Cold or hot, rain or
snow. I do not see. I do not feel.
I am outside everything. Not noticing the fuss of someone else's life passing by,
not feeling natural phenomena not even my own body. I feel like a collection of
atoms, splitting, melting into the universe. I am again at a point of time and
space in a limitless vacuum of freedom.
Have
I been searching for it since the birth? In making and breaking ties,
bonds and bounds, in refusals, in attainments, in creations, in knowledge,
experience, thoughts, feelings, ideas, fate, relations, in work, in art, in
entertainments and in asceticism, in the wilderness and in the limelight,
in varied cultures, countries, places, alone with myself and with God, in
magnificent mountains and in sad plains alongside the four elements when it is
wild or quiet, but all this were simply pathways along which my soul tried
to reach the freedom.
Remember
Jungs associative test? "The white door" - " one more cozy,
plain room filled with light which fills the space piercing through the open
window-door. Surprising that this light is neutral, the space beyond the door
has no temperature or smell, no colour, no movement and it has no limits. There
is only the light of peace, pervading and giving everything equilibrium: and
everything disappears in this homogenous essence of light".
I
feel myself in this light penetrating through me and cutting my body into a
million small parts, which harmoniously become the one substance with the
universe. This is a state of freedom. No ties. You are in the vacuum of this
light pouring like rain from the Cosmos
I
opened this door to freedom in Rome, strolling through the centuries and
millennia of human being life. This time Rome became the end point of my journey
in search of freedom. This was surely the aim of my lifes path passed
and became a turn point of my existence.
Freedom...
Freedom...Freedom is not a ghost or an idea. It has its own spatial form. It may
spread in your heart, your soul, consciousness, thoughts, and deeds and be a
part of you. But you may also be a part of it. This is the absolute of
freedom, when
you are a part of the neutral light in which your absolute independence spreads
and multiplies because of its uselessness..
In
this unlimited vacuum of absolute freedom there is nothing except a space of
neutral light. This is on the other side of the door. This is the Death.
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*The
dialog may be interpreted as a lovers talk and as a sequence which lighten
the emotional play when liberating from dependence. Sensation of Freedom may be
reached by closing and leaving the storage of the past - memories - the freedom
from the heavy phantoms of dependences of the past: or it could be Possession of
Freedom, granted by love. Love. It has so different forms and it is associated
with the spring. To one who raised
on the Parnassus of Freedom within Love I would dedicate the following lines
which were transferred from Vatican library." E allora... Fermare il tempo
e amarci e ancora amarci, stringerci, accarezzarci, guardarci e non dire niente,
solo "ciao", perche il nostro ciao e gratificazione, e intesa, e
volonta di vivare...... I nostro amore.." (and now to stop the time
and to love and again love, coddling, sharing tenderness, affection, love
without any word but "ciao" because our "ciao" is
concentrated desire to live... in our love.) The time stops in the space
fulfilled by requital love. Liberation from the whole world is in desire of
being with beloved.
I
wish you to have this experience of Divine feeling. One who is already
soaring in high streams of sublime Love is to be reminded of the disappointment
puddle, on the surface of which is a reflecting anamorphosis strained
by idealization. Love sincerely, deeply with all your heart, but do not make the
Idol or the God from the human being (is it from Ten Tables?). Extraordinary
exalted, impassioned flight when interattraction appears and a certain
union reached, is blessed and granted with inflow of Divine energies and this
sacrament of the present moment made by real Love and based on deep reciprocal
affection is not for everyone to reach. Clear spirits get clear Divine
energy.
** The description of a white door according to the Jung test mentioned is
the associative interpretation of the Death perception.
*** Freedom as the death of dependences, relations...Freedom is when you are
just a part of universe, its micro system among others which are part of the
whole and you are free of the choice for collaboration... when you are free from
the load of the past and "dated programs" and do not take "viruses"
of others.. just what you wish and have to accept.
Absolute Freedom is absence of others for you and you for others. There are none of relations, No disturb. No influence. No interactions, none of vectors of idea or action movement. Nothing. Emptiness. The death.
Obviously it is impossible to reach the Absolute Freedom, if it is for long the Death comes into possession called up by unavailing life..
The meditation, targeting on the abstracting one's mind from the environment, gives some reach of subjective absolute freedom for a time as well some escapes and changes in environment. Any escape from the reality or an environment change is an attempt to liberate the mind from trash and set up agreeable stream of life, but any hermit is in interaction net with the others through images, memories, ideas, actions and is not in absolute freedom state. And even when it seems to be reached it is just subjective and for the time. But this subjective sensation of Absolute Freedom is a very powerful and great state, which shall be reached at least once.
Some people
didnt comprehend the text, finding it strange and much different from my
philosophy of life based on Senecas and Aristipps and some modern ideas as
positive thinking.
Obviously,
being sized by a day-by-day routine pattern, and being submissive and
accommodating, a man doesnt feel a need for liberation the consciousness from
the load of life events, ideas and thoughts, memories and fears for unlading the
mind of the trash in order to revise the relations with the environment for
improvements. For this submissive and accommodating one this text will be
misapprehended until
the desperate need of escape from a discomfiting frustration situation or
a nonplus. This text helps you to come to yourself and reach
a clear view of the situation from a new perspective
at least or it may even grant you a higher vision of own life.
This is the purport of this creation, that was called psychological, by
others - philosophical essay, and somebody named it Mantra materializing
Freedom. I like Mantra Materializing Freedom for achieving Harmony, this was
the Target.
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Substance
of Freedom
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The reply from my friend in Canada(born in Russia), that touched me deeply. I had to make some changes for the Beauty but kept all the deep meaning of the text and tried my best to stick to original. I added to this complementary and beautiful work the saying of Leonardo da Vinci
Alex Cher:
"ruins of Great Empires. Everything passed,
but stones, and one day they fade away too
and the surrounding emptiness will be the only alive memory"
from my travel book 1998.
I hardly can say what suggest an idea to me. Most likely I got sense of a short
space of human life time, its temporaries. And fear was
created by the thought that these stones that was delivered by slaves, outlived
them and many generations of people who believed in eternity, and when I fade
away these stones will remain...
Maximums
"Everything what we are doing now makes history and belongs to
Eternity"
I watch the ruins of Empire being envious to those slaves who had built these
amphitheatres. They left somehow substantial trace. They were just simple people
but they got eternity. The graves of celebrities didnt touch me as these
yellow stones of amphitheatre in Arlee
What
trace on the earth I am leaving ?
This time I begin thinking about the death, its inevitable and its struggle
with life. Although there is no struggle, and life was created by death. And
Life is just a gift from the Death. Enjoy for some time, then I come... when the
need. .... I do not believe in accidents. It should be something to connect
300 people who have bought tickets and fly by airplane that has crash-land in
the end.
I believe in fate or the path that is to be passed or lived. And if after
several hints, marks, events the man keeps wrong way, the death removes his and
put the other one.
What trace on the earth will I leave?
What is going on?...I do not know. Heaven or Hell, emptiness or a new life. Does
it matter? Why are people so interested in? May be it is a way of search for
eternity?.
What trace on the earth have I left??
"As
a well-spent day brings happy sleep, so life well used brings happy death."
Leonardo da Vinci
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CRITICS:
Extract
from Doronkina's report "About E.Gera exhibition on ARTs
2003":
"...For Elen a word, a sound, a line, a colour are instruments for generating ideas and images, and her essay "Substance of Freedom" presented here on ARTs and during "Bell'Art" in 2001" as Elen Gera says "is the result of the research, recorded in images, which are made not from colours and forms, but captured in letters and sound. The sound-writing fires the reader's imagination, involving conscious and subconscious, creates associative mapping of new reality, which shows the treasures and secrets of objective existence.
P.S.
We understand the
sound-writing as one more powerful instrument of creating the images by using
the rhythm and sound in sayings/writings along the sense of words and expression.
As for me I explored this essay making the report from the "Bell'ART"
project in 2001. It changed my life."
Notes
...If
the absolute freedom means the death, could it be that the urge towards it is an
attempt to quit the current situation/life program? Need of corrections? Of
refreshed relations with the environment? Correction of own personality? Of
environment? see "stress" page
and other articles here or sources in the Internet.
"I" lives in interconnections and according
the given interdependences.